Dark hole
I slowly sinking into a deep dark place all alone. As time goes by I realise that I have depression as much as I hate to admit it. Every now and then I will start to condemn myself and every decision I ever made. I will want to hurt myself by pinching and slowly develops [..more..]
Choice?
If being with that someone constantly bring tears, pain, sorrows and sadness to you will you still stay with him/her? I dont have the answer to that nor can I make decision or a choice because it is that someone that made me see the reality of the world. Without that someone I wouldn’t have [..more..]
Again and again
Although I knew that life is not a bed of roses, but I definitely don’t want it to be suffocating. All this problems, stress, insecurities, fear, uncertainties is drowning me. I feel like I am about to break down. By putting on a mask, nobody notices all that I am hiding and how much it [..more..]
Anger
No matter how hard I try to hold in the anger, I feel like it is consuming me slowly….. Is it because I am always hiding my feelings and putting up a fake smile that all this emotions I bottled up is slowly turning into anger??? I really don’t know what to do. Every time [..more..]
Breathe
It hurts so much I am having trouble breathing. I thought I can get used to it but it is all just my own narcissistic opinion. I really want to disappear.
Think
After having heard the hurtful words that my parents said to me, I am reminded of all the painful things that had happened in the past which actually made me think of hurting myself. This is not a post to offend people but just an opinion. There is some comment in this website which says [..more..]
28-03-12(8:35:31)
I hope I will die soon… After all it doesn’t matter whether i am here in this world !! I don’t think God even cares if one less human is in this world !!
16-03-12(4:16:47)
I hope that someone will notice that i am just pretending to be strong and happy…. will anyone notice it is all just an act ??? I hope i could smile from the bottom of my heart