19-11-11(22:47:23)
Only life was that simple. The person i love no longer felt the same about me. Do i hold on to him or let him go to find him own happiness.I know i should let him go but its so hard to let go. What should i do? feel so empty inside just want to [..more..]
19-11-11(12:55:46)
He was my teacher but he moved to the other campus. I didn’t realize that I would miss him until I didn’t have him. He was so kind to me and didn’t laugh at me like everyone in my class. He was so clumsy, always tripping over his own feet. Once I was kneeling on [..more..]
19-11-11(1:39:02)
I can’t sleep. There needs to be a website called “support network”. Where people know that is where they can go to help each other and themselves. Reach out to others where maybe in their town they don’t really have anyone. This is something though. I don’t know. I’ll keep looking for a different site [..more..]
17-11-11(9:54:16)
my mind blocked out everything but then it all came back at me at once, now my wrists are bleeding and its so hard to stop. I just want to cut away everything I feel dirty I feel like my skin just needs to be hacked at. Is that the only way I can get [..more..]
16-11-11(21:56:44)
My new film to watch and ideas
16-11-11(21:33:15)
I could see a twinkle in her eyes, a light so deep embedded, made me smile made me fearless, but now it’s cracked and can never be fully put back together…
16-11-11(9:52:47)
Dad, I miss you so much! I wish I could see you often. I wish you didn’t have schizophrenia… Maybe I would’ve been able to know more about you. Even though, I barely know you, I still have a few memories of you. Most of them aren’t good, but I know it’s not your fault [..more..]
16-11-11(2:45:51)
Oh my gosh I just want to walk down the stairs and yell at both of your for your total lack of respect. If its not one thing its another. You don’t seem to get how much the noise bothers other people in this house. I don’t want to bombarded with Christmas-crap yet. I don’t [..more..]
16-11-11(1:08:10)
It’s halfway through November, and with every day closer to December, I feel worse. I’m having nightmares, I’m hypersensitive, I don’t want to wake up in the morning, I want to hurt myself and I’m obsessively craving affection from men again… I’m afraid of this person that’s inhabiting my body, the person that always does [..more..]
15-11-11(22:17:37)
A past long forgotten, sealed and sent away – returned by a few words, now gone for the wind to blow away. i don’t mind, i’d do anything from losing your heart. An owl you’ve become, myself – a bear as i walk in the sunshine by the river and wonder if you’d walk the [..more..]