TruthLies
I wanted to let you know the truth, but I didn't want to hurt you. In the end the truth is that the truth would still have hurt you. The lies didn't hurt you worse, that's just bulls*** people say. Just like this f***ing bit about how people end up getting hurt either way. Anytime [..more..]
Growing, Grown, Grew
When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put the ways of childhood behind me. -Corinthians 13:11 Adulting is difficult and doesn't come easy. We ALL make mistakes and struggle in our own ways. Hopefully we learn [..more..]
Knock knock
Who's there
Two
The title is not what you think it might be about Basically long story short, arguement, lost all my friends blah blah blah The main person who caused the argument personally unfollowed me, and so my petty ass unfollowed her, but after MONTHS it's nearly been a year, HE decided to PERSONALLY unfollow ME so [..more..]
“Do well so that Mother is proud, but don’t do too well or you will outshine her.”
A feeling of emptiness that won't go away, and I don't know where it comes from. Downplaying my own achievements. Not ever feeling like I deserve anything. Playing my brother and I against each other. Telling you that I was abused and you looking at me like I was disgusting. Pushing my sexual abuse under the rug [..more..]
I am a failure
Im old now but i still owns nothing. Im old now but i dont have money in the bank I dont have a car I dont have a house Im a failure I failed me I am doing everything but nothing is happening.
With all apologies
Sorry for all the prank calls my friend made *When we tried to sell fake books. *When I had the pretend abusive, hillbilly husband and I was knocked up. *All the "Is your refrigerador running?" *When we asked for Drew P. Wiener and Anita Lay.
Vivid dream
I once had a dream where I was floating in the middle of the ocean. Not knowing how I got there, but not worrying. The sky's were a baby blue with not a single cloud. As I floated along the surface, my body slowly swayed. I felt safe and the waves slowly put me in [..more..]
Devour
When I arrive, I am silent. I spread within. Your body becomes my incubator. Silently making you weaker. Soon the droplets and sprays began to touch everywhere I follow. I infect anyone and everyone. I do not discriminate. You can't fight me off. I'm deadly.
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When I lived in Mexico City at the end of the 1940's, it was a city of one million people, with clear sparkling air and the sky that special shade of blue that goes so well with circling vultures, blood and sand—the raw menacing pitiless Mexican blue. I liked Mexico City from the first day [..more..]