Posted by Anonymous on 2012/11/23 under Uncategorized well i haven’t been on here in awhile because i haven’t had too much going on, but now things are starting to go back to its usual self and i just need to get everything out of my system. so my life has been coming back together like things used to be.. i got a boyfriend and our one month was three days ago he’s helped me change my life so much! i’ve known him for a few months and he’s helped me through so much things even when we weren’t dating. so as everything is going good my mom picks me up from school and once i get in the car she’s in a sad mood. turns out its my dad again.. my dad had the cops show up at her door to give her some paper to fill out about all her recent items she bought or something like that. my parents are divorced obviously and are hopefully going back to court soon. my mom is still single but my dad has remarried to a lady whom hates my sister and i,treats my dad like crap when my sister and i are around,and screws around with my dads head telling him what all to do. suddenly my dad has started acting different around my sister and i..he doesn’t wanna have anything to do with us. but my parents are going back to court and my dad want full custody of my sister and i?? oh wait, i didnt mention hes an alcoholic,he cheated on my mom with a girl who was half his age,the ENTIRE county found out about this, nobody likes him,when i say my last name people always ask if im his daughter and when i say yes they give me weird looks. my mom has to pay for everything because my dad doesnt even wanna pay child support. my mom has 3 jobs just to provide for my sister and i and that still doesnt help. i live in a small house and my mom has to pay rent while my dad lives in a two story house wanting to move to a bigger house! my mom cant afford to get me new clothes or take me to the mall with my friends. and if i ask my dad for money, he wont give me it. when we go out to eat with my dad theres always drinking involved and then my dad gets behind the wheel and my stepmom cant drive cause shes drank more than my dad. but this is all happening now. a few months ago it was worse,way worse. i thought about committing suicide a lot. i started cutting on and off again. my dad has made my mom,my sister,and me suffer through hell and back with him and im sick and tired of it. i know life isnt ever normal but cant it get close? i miss my old dad. the one that i could always tell a secret to without it being a big deal, the one who tells me i should go out for a sport, the one who wont put me down, the one who would make me feel protected, the one who wouldn’t make me cry myself to sleep every night.. i miss him..i want him back.