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Posted by on 2012/10/27 under Uncategorized

Every person who has been with me for one year thinks they know the “real” me. The thing is friends that have known me for 11 years don’t actually know the “real” me. For so many years, I’ve been putting on a fake front which is also known as a fake personality, a fake person. Of course I don’t have multiple personality disorder(not that I have a problem with people who do have it) it’s just my real self is only expressed when I’m alone. It’s like my real self is cooped up and It has been for the past 9 years when I first entered kindergarten. My fake self is known for being hyperactive, annoying, talkative, loud, hyper, weird, and jumpy. My real self is known as quiet, serious, lonely, tired, and sad. Thinking that I had a fake self for so many years can never change unless I restart it off fresh at the right time, but the truth is that wont be for long hopefully. Since I smile mostly everyday, if I frown or have no happy expression on my face everybody thinks I’m sad or mad about something and when I say I’m not, they disagree and beg me to tell them what’s wrong. The thing is, IM WASN’T IN A BAD MOOD UNTIL YOU STARTED ANNOYING ME BECAUSE IM NOT SMILING. then after they tell everyone “why is she so mad at me, I didn’t do anything!!!” WE’LL THE TRUTH IS YOU DID BECAUSE YOU INVADED MY PERSONAL PRIVACY!!!!! And they try to joke around by saying stuff like she’s so weird ever since we met she’s always hyper and I regret being friends with her. And then I’m like you don’t know me. And they say they know EVERYTHING!!! EVERYTHING. HOW THE HELL WHOULD YOU KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT ME!?!?!?!? You don’t know one thing. Then I ask them a simple question like what’s my favorite color, and they say well I don’t know that but I know what your like AND IM LIKE THEN SHUT THE F*** UP IF YOU DONT KNOW SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS THAT B****

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