Posted by Anonymous on 2012/10/16 under Uncategorized WHY AM I HERE? I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY GOD PUT ME HERE. ALL I WANT TO DO IS LAY DOWN GO TO SLEEP AND NEVER WAKE UP EVER AGAIN. I DON’T KNOW WHY I’M FEELING THIS WAY OR HOW THIS HAPPENED. WHY CAN’T ANYBODY HELP ME?? I’M EITHER CRAZY OR EXAGGERATING. SOMETIMES I BELIEVE IT, BUT I CAN’T HELP WHAT I FEEL…NOBODY CAN. I WANT TO HAVE PEACE IN MY LIFE AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT WHAT PEOPLE THINK OR SAY. I FEEL LIKE I’M NOTHING AT THIS POINT…WHAT DID I DO WRONG? AM I BEING PUNISHED? I LOVE MY FAMILY AND I’M TRYING TO STAY STRONG FOR THEM. I’VE HAD THOUGHTS THAT SHOULD NEVER BE THOUGHT..IDEAS IN MY HEAD. IF ONLY I COULD JUST END IT NOW. IT DOESN’T SOUND LIKE A BAD IDEA TOO. I WANT TO SCREAM HELP!!! I’M SCARED!!…BUT MY WORDS ARE SILENT TO PEOPLE. I’M DONE TRYING TO BE SOMETHING I’M NOT. THE ONE PERSON THAT ALWAYS STOPS THOSE BAD THOUGHT IS MY ONE AND ONLY LOVE. LATELY HE HASN’T BEEN THERE. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE GOOD MEMORIES AND THE LAUGHS. I WILL ALWAYS CARRY THEM IN MY HEART. I DON’T KNOW HOW MUCH I CAN TAKE. I’LL BE GONE ONE DAY AND NOBODY WILL CARE…SHOCKER. I WAS ONCE THAT PERSON WITH THAT SMILE. THE MOST LOVED PERSON IN SCHOOL…I WAS “PERFECT” I’M NOT NOBODY IS…I’M STAYING STRONG NOT JUST FOR ME BUT FOR THE PEOPLE THAT TRULY CARE ABOUT ME..I LOVE YOU GUYS, BUT ONE DAY ILL HAVE ENOUGH..THE DAY I WONT CARE ABOUT ANYTHING BUT PEACE AND QUIET…
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how will the people you love feel if you were to just end it? they would think you were selfish for not thinking of how they would feel .Anger cant be helped in situations like this they will begin to think maybe they were to blame. You need to reach out to someone tell them how you feel. they can help if you give them a chance. i had the same problem and thought i could handle it on my own but it just made me more depressed. it made me feel alone when in reality i was surrounded by all these people who loved me. i opened up and they listened to every word i had to say they never judged me. maybe you should do the same. your not alone