Posted by Anonymous on 2012/09/16 under Uncategorized My boyfriend is in the US Air Force and he just left for his second ‘station’ for more schooling, and I won’t get to see him until Christmas. He’s missing my birthday and he just won’t be around for a while. It may not seem that long, and yeah, we still get to talk, but it’s not enough. It’s not the same. People always tell me that it’s not bad and it’ll fly by; I don’t think that’s the case. He’s the only thing that keeps me functioning. He’s my support and my happiness. Without him around, even just sometimes, things get too hard for me to handle. And I always feel so alone. I love him so much, and I can never seem to handle things without him anymore. And once this schooling is done, he’ll get stationed somewhere, probably far away, and we’re going to have to continue long distance until we get married. I’ll have to find a different college near him. I’m so worried about the future that I lay in bed sobbing. Racking sobs that make my stomach and throat hurt. On top of his being gone and all my stressing, I just found out I have PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome)which could potentially damage my chances of having children later in life, and makes things much more stressful now. A symptom of PCOS is being overweight and having trouble fixing it, which is, I guess, what I should be considered, so now I have to really change my eating habits and add in even more exercise (which is a good thing, but just means it’s one more thing for me to think about all the time). I go to a private school that is almost like the equivalency of college, so I have no time and it’s an extreme challenge for me to get the grades I need/want. I’m a senior this year, which is just a stressful situation in itself. I’m just so overwhelmed all the time. I just want to go to sleep for a few months.