Posted by Anonymous on 2012/06/05 under Uncategorized ok. I don’t even know why I’m here. will anyone ever read this? damn. I just need to vent. here it goes.
I F***IN MISS YOU. i know it’s a long shot between us. heck. i don’t even think i’ll be able to see you in real life. but you’re just amazing. I know we met online and i know you’re real. you’re not some person pretending to be someone else. we’ve been video chatting for the last two months everyday and we’ve talked about everything we could ever talk about. we’ve even talked about me moving to where you’re at. I know you’re going through something rough, family issues and s*** and you’re the kind of guy who likes to be alone when things get rough. You know I want to be there for you and you always thank me but I can’t be there for you if you won’t let me. I don’t want to be a whiny and needy b**** but i’m scared and worried about you. You never go online and you don’t leave emails. I know, it’s easier to avoid someone when you’ve actually never met or when you’ve met online but i don’t know. I don’t know what to feel or how to feel about this. i guess, the bottom line is or what i really want to happen is that I don’t want to be caught up in you. i like you a lot and you feel the same way, we’ve told each other that but I don’t want to be stuck here waiting for you. Honestly, I’m tired. I’m miserable when I don’t get to talk to you. I feel so bad not knowing if you’re alright. I don’t know what to do.