Posted by Anonymous on 2011/06/19 under Uncategorized ok so i dunno wat to do, my life just feels all over the place at the min between my dad being really sick and always in and out of hospital, my brother telling the whole family we cant see his kids anymore, my dad tryin to kill himself, my mams lung colapsing, my uncle passing away, and now my friends (well 1 friend) not talkin to me, i feel like just gettin a 1 way ticket out of here and never looking back, ugh thats not even startin on my love life, i’ve been mad about 1 of my best mates for the last 2 years now and we had a bit of a fling about a yr an a half ago and then NOTHIN!!! i was totally defistated over it and because she was my mate i still seen her all the time like at 1 point it got so bad i was thinkin of just walkin away from that whole group of friends, then a few months later i find out she’s not only back with her ex but there engaged and during the time they were back together she was back flirting with me!!! anyway i took a MAJOR step back once i found this and things just went so wrong from there, like she was tellin me that she really liked me n stuff yet seein sum1 behind my back (i no we werent together but do friends do that to eachother?) anyway in the last few weeks things have gotten even weirder, she broke up with her fincee and i’ve been seeing her ALOT more often and the flirting has started back again, nothing had happed at all till last weekend when 3 of us went away for an over night down the country and we ended up kissing and all this week we’ve been meetin up for tea n stuff but nothin had happend since yet she s tellin me she likes me and wants me, we said this weekend we would have a night in together but its saturday now and i havent heard a thing about it!!! i no im being such an idiot and lettin her hurt me all the time but i dunno wat to do, im totally mad about her i’ve never felt this way about any1 b4 in my life and i dont think i can walk away. wat do i do for the best?