Let’s remember I was only trying to vent and express myself. Unaware of the f***s that lurk all writing dotcom sites. I was attacked, put down, truly stalked, and when I had/have not many people to talk with I turned to write. I was at the lowest I had been and I was being pushed to do away with myself. If I defend myself that’s only in my nature.
Yes, I truly am and was unhappy. That’s what happens when you have dealt with a lot of things that no one should have to.
Judge me. We are all and will always be. Will that make you feel better? You feel above me now?
Tell me about how you think I’m a servent to others?
You hope to give your life to kindness?
I guess that would be a nice life change.
I’m sure we all could work on something. Just look at me and my patience. I have improved some over the years. Had to when it come to dealing with people, older and younger ones.
That’s so good. I too am proud of you. Making all that effort. When it comes to ageing minds I hear that puzzles, books, writing and working out all do wonders. It also helps to live a stress-free life, but honestly who has that.
I watch this show and this guy wanted to end himself due to illness he said the most beautiful thing before he did.
“Everything is matter. You’re matter, I’m matter, that chairs matter. Matter can not die only change its form. Let’s say I burn this match its still a match, but now its ash. Even when I’m gone, I will still be here in different form.”
I don’t really know what you are talking about. There you go again…
Remember Great and powerful OZ I mean WULVER you need to just say it. I really hate picking up on things. I get lost in the confusion.
I just thought this was said nicely about death (it’s been on my mind a lot). Our conversation have become confusing and I really don’t know what to say.
Also, to add to the last few comments I put I am not a paladin. In the past I have ran from adversity. I guess I’m not as strong as you. It must be because I lack confidence in people and I have slight trust issues.
You’ve been f***ing with me. I clearly live in the real world. We all do. I am breathing, eating and s***ting the real world. I wake, I don’t stop, I try, I accomplish things. So what if I want to avoid bad situations that happen. It’s only because of my weak threshold of stress. I am strong, “But there was no need to be ashamed of tears, for tears bore witness that a man (or woman) had the greatest of courage, the courage to suffer.”
I didn’t even realize that I have been having anxiety or panic attacks most of my teens and adult life until a few psychology courses. Unfortunately I am and will not be enlightened with your name or the names of the ones that have messed with me. Here’s a little enlightenment for you “It’s easier to see the faults of others, but difficult to see one’s own faults.” You don’t know me nor I you, there is no need for me to explain.
Sometimes it’s easier to appear oblivious because that’s just what others want.
I am aware of you, your feelings, your games, and it f***ing hurts.
You should go back and re-read the conversation. If you still feel as if you weren’t leading me along then I’m sorry about my angry tone.
I’m sad, hurt and lonely, I really just need something to keep me going not feel as if I’m living in my own world.
I really don’t know what I was expecting from this.
I do want to let you know that this comment “THE NEXT PLACE IS WHAT WOULD BE KNOWN TO SOME AS THE REAL WORLD” came across rude.
I am sorry you became offended, it’s just that I didn’t feel that you would honestly care. This looks like a joke. Tell me it doesn’t?
TO INSINUATE THAT MY KNOWLEDGE IS IN ANY WAY A JOKE IS TO INSULT MY VERY EXISTENCE.
YOU DID NOT KNOW THIS, AND SO YOU ARE NOT AT FAULT. YOU NEED NOT CONCERN YOURSELF WITH SUCH MATTERS.
STILL, YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT ALL I SAY IS THE TRUTH. THIS WORLD IS A FORMATIVE AND VITAL ONE, BUT SOMEDAY IT WILL END. IT IS THE FLEETINGNESS OF LIFE THAT MAKES YOU, AND OTHERS LIKE YOU, SO VALUABLE. WHETHER YOU REALISE IT OR NOT, YOU ARE IMPORTANT.
I don’t want to exist. I’m hurting and this hurt comes from within. So I cry and because of that I feel weak and pathetic. Im really down tonight like I’m mentally beat.
I’m too old to feel like this. I keep getting told by family to get out of my head. They don’t understand this feeling. They make me feel just a little worse. I have started talking to a professional.
HONESTLY? I DID NOT HELP MYSELF. I WAS FOUND AND HELPED BY OTHERS WHO CARED FOR ME. NOT EVERYONE HAS THE LUXURY OF BEING BORN INTO LOVING PLACES, THOUGH, AND SO THEY MUST JOURNEY TO FIND THOSE WHO WILL CARE FOR THEM.
Everyone’s time is short. It feels like not long ago I was in my twenties. I feel like I’m in a rut that I can’t get out of and all I do is waste time.
God, that hurts. I almost started crying. Held it in (inner me was all, girl you’re crazy, you don’t know them). But you seem familiar, maybe, I don’t know.
Thank you for chatting with me.
You will be missed terribly too.
(See, there I go hurting again)
Where should I look wulver
I thought this would be fun to entertain. Nothing really?
YOU LACK THE PATIENCE NEEDED TO BRING YOU INTO THE NEXT PLACE
FOR THE NEXT ONE IS ETERNAL
LOOK IN THE DISTANCE
LOOK IN THE GAPS
UNDERNEATH THE OUTER LAYERS OF YOU
What should I be looking for in the distance in these gaps and underneath outer layers of me?
You know patience is one thing I never really mastered.
WHAT THEN HAVE YOU MASTERED?
YOU SHOULD BE LOOKING FOR THE COSMIC REASSURANCE
THE KNOWLEDGE THAT ALL WILL BE RIGHT AND GOOD SOMEDAY
IT IS THERE
SOMEWHERE
Not that! Lol
Imma gonna have to drink a lot of wine till someday;(
How soon?
Oh, yeah, I feel that this was as helpful as a magic 8 ball.
Ask:
When will I be happy?
Reply:
Yes
Wulver you failed me with your empty words and confusing ass wording.
Just be up front
FINE.
YOU ARE WASTING YOUR SHORT LIFE WITH PETTY TRIVIALITIES AND RUDENESS.
PERHAPS I AM WRONG, BUT IT SEEMS TO ME YOU ARE UNHAPPY IN SOME RESPECTS.
IF YOU ARE NOT A SERVANT TO OTHERS, YOU WILL BE JUDGED FOR YOUR TRANSGRESSIONS.
IS THAT ENOUGH FOR YOU, FRIEND? OR SHALL I CONTINUE?
You should continue.
PETTY TRIVIALITIES AND RUDENESS
Let’s remember I was only trying to vent and express myself. Unaware of the f***s that lurk all writing dotcom sites. I was attacked, put down, truly stalked, and when I had/have not many people to talk with I turned to write. I was at the lowest I had been and I was being pushed to do away with myself. If I defend myself that’s only in my nature.
Yes, I truly am and was unhappy. That’s what happens when you have dealt with a lot of things that no one should have to.
Judge me. We are all and will always be. Will that make you feel better? You feel above me now?
Tell me about how you think I’m a servent to others?
I AM NO BETTER THAN YOU, BUT IN THIS REGARD YOU ARE STRONGER THAN I
UNHAPPINESS IS SUCH A BURDEN TO BEAR. NO SHOULD HAVE TO SUFFER, SURELY- AND YET IT IS THE WAY OF THE WORLD.
I WOULD LIKE YOU TO KNOW THAT DESPITE EVERYTHING, YOU ARE LOVED.
MAKE NO MISTAKE
I AM THE SERVANT, NOT YOU
Now you have gone and made me feel like s***.
I guess we both are..
I AM SORRY YOU FEEL POORLY
THANKFULLY I AM HERE
I SHALL MAKE MY ATTEMPT AT KINDNESS
IT IS A STRANGE CONCEPT TO ME, BUT I WILL TRY
I will be fine. I don’t think you should change.
BUT I MUST.
Why is that?
IT IS IN THE NATURE OF ALL BEINGS TO CHANGE, IN SOME CAPACITY
How are you going to make this “ATTEMPT AT KINDNESS”?
I HOPE TO GIVE MY LIFE, SOMEDAY
You hope to give your life to kindness?
I guess that would be a nice life change.
I’m sure we all could work on something. Just look at me and my patience. I have improved some over the years. Had to when it come to dealing with people, older and younger ones.
Comes*
THAT IS GOOD. I AM PROUD OF YOU.
Awww shucks, thanks!
YOU ARE WELCOME
AS MY MIND DETERIORATES, I MUST MAKE MORE AND MORE OF AN EFFORT
That’s so good. I too am proud of you. Making all that effort. When it comes to ageing minds I hear that puzzles, books, writing and working out all do wonders. It also helps to live a stress-free life, but honestly who has that.
What do you mean by, “DESPITE EVERYTHING, YOU ARE LOVED.”?
ALL PEOPLE IN ALL REALITIES FACE TROUBLE
EXISTENCE ITSELF IS UNCERTAIN
BUT THERE IS SOLACE IN THE KNOWLEDGE THAT YOU ARE LOVED AND CARED FOR
In all realities lol What’s your reality?
Dose it have deadly giant murder hornets? They are what make nightmares.
Is this religious? Because it seems very religious.
*does
Are you loved?
THERE ARE MANY MANY WORLDS
ENTANGLED TOGETHER
AND ALL THINGS EXIST IN SOME FORM, SOMEWHERE
EVERYTHING IS OVERSEEN AND BELOVED BY MY GOOD FRIEND
I like that word entangled. It sounds erotic.
That’s good.
I watch this show and this guy wanted to end himself due to illness he said the most beautiful thing before he did.
“Everything is matter. You’re matter, I’m matter, that chairs matter. Matter can not die only change its form. Let’s say I burn this match its still a match, but now its ash. Even when I’m gone, I will still be here in different form.”
ASSUMING MATTER AND TIME ARE AS YOU UNDERSTAND IT IS A MISTAKE
MOST PEOPLE ARE LIMITED IN WHAT THEY ALLOW THEMSELVES TO SEE
I don’t really know what you are talking about. There you go again…
Remember Great and powerful OZ I mean WULVER you need to just say it. I really hate picking up on things. I get lost in the confusion.
I just thought this was said nicely about death (it’s been on my mind a lot). Our conversation have become confusing and I really don’t know what to say.
Sorry! Take care of yourself.
DO NOT WORRY.
ALL HUMANS LIVE IN A SHADOWED, DEEPLY FLAWED REALITY
A MERE REFLECTION OF THE REAL THING
Oh yeah, all humans.
What would you call yourself?
What’s my real thing Wulver?
How do you expect me to make my reality less flawed?
THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO. YOU CAN ONLY BE OPEN TO THE UNSEEN AND UNBELIEVABLE
THIS I KNOW, AS I AM A PALADIN OF THE REAL WORLD
Nothing I will do then. Alright, I’ll be open.
I’m sure I have some battle wounds from putting up with the real world, but I would not call myself a victor. Good to see that you are so brave.
PALADINS MUST BE BRAVE IN THE FACE OF ADVERSITY
IT IS AN HONOR FOR ME TO SERVE
Lol, this got odd.
What’s the next place? Just out of curiosity
Also, to add to the last few comments I put I am not a paladin. In the past I have ran from adversity. I guess I’m not as strong as you. It must be because I lack confidence in people and I have slight trust issues.
THE NEXT PLACE IS WHAT WOULD BE KNOWN TO SOME AS THE REAL WORLD
AND NO ONE IS BORN WITH TRUE STRENGTH
FOR IT DOES NOT COME FROM WITHIN
IT COMES FROM ENLIGHTENMENT
You’ve been f***ing with me. I clearly live in the real world. We all do. I am breathing, eating and s***ting the real world. I wake, I don’t stop, I try, I accomplish things. So what if I want to avoid bad situations that happen. It’s only because of my weak threshold of stress. I am strong, “But there was no need to be ashamed of tears, for tears bore witness that a man (or woman) had the greatest of courage, the courage to suffer.”
I didn’t even realize that I have been having anxiety or panic attacks most of my teens and adult life until a few psychology courses. Unfortunately I am and will not be enlightened with your name or the names of the ones that have messed with me. Here’s a little enlightenment for you “It’s easier to see the faults of others, but difficult to see one’s own faults.” You don’t know me nor I you, there is no need for me to explain.
Sometimes it’s easier to appear oblivious because that’s just what others want.
I am aware of you, your feelings, your games, and it f***ing hurts.
You’re just f***ing with me, right?
Why don’t you just be up front and honest.
You want me to admit something? What? Say it? I am truly aware of this world. What can you enlighten me with that I don’t already know?
How about that I’m ridiculous for talking and responding to this! FML
WHY ARE YOU SO ANGRY? I TELL YOU WHAT I KNOW, BUT I AM NO EXPERT- NEITHER AM I A LEADER TO FOLLOW.
EITHER WAY, I HAVE DONE NOTHING TO WARRANT YOUR AGGRESSION.
It doesn’t matter
Sorry
WHATEVER HARDSHIP HAS BEFALLEN YOU IN YOUR LIFETIME, DO NOT TAKE YOUR ANGER OUT ON ME. I DO NOT DESERVE IT.
I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE TO SEE YOU HAPPY, FRIEND. PLEASE KNOW THIS.
You should go back and re-read the conversation. If you still feel as if you weren’t leading me along then I’m sorry about my angry tone.
I’m sad, hurt and lonely, I really just need something to keep me going not feel as if I’m living in my own world.
I really don’t know what I was expecting from this.
I do want to let you know that this comment “THE NEXT PLACE IS WHAT WOULD BE KNOWN TO SOME AS THE REAL WORLD” came across rude.
I am sorry you became offended, it’s just that I didn’t feel that you would honestly care. This looks like a joke. Tell me it doesn’t?
I DO NOT LEAD ANYTHING ALONG.
TO INSINUATE THAT MY KNOWLEDGE IS IN ANY WAY A JOKE IS TO INSULT MY VERY EXISTENCE.
YOU DID NOT KNOW THIS, AND SO YOU ARE NOT AT FAULT. YOU NEED NOT CONCERN YOURSELF WITH SUCH MATTERS.
STILL, YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT ALL I SAY IS THE TRUTH. THIS WORLD IS A FORMATIVE AND VITAL ONE, BUT SOMEDAY IT WILL END. IT IS THE FLEETINGNESS OF LIFE THAT MAKES YOU, AND OTHERS LIKE YOU, SO VALUABLE. WHETHER YOU REALISE IT OR NOT, YOU ARE IMPORTANT.
Thank you,
You are also important.
I’m really trying to feel like it or work on feeling like I am.
THAT IS GOOD
IT IS THE STRUGGLE IN OF ITSELF THAT ADDS MEANING TO A STRANGE EXISTENCE
It’s hard to feel anything but sad, guilty, and just overall bad. I feel so hopeless
I don’t want to exist. I’m hurting and this hurt comes from within. So I cry and because of that I feel weak and pathetic. Im really down tonight like I’m mentally beat.
I UNDERSTAND. THERE WAS A TIME WHEN I DID NOT WANT TO EXIST EITHER.
I’m sorry
I’m too old to feel like this. I keep getting told by family to get out of my head. They don’t understand this feeling. They make me feel just a little worse. I have started talking to a professional.
What did you do to help yourself?
HONESTLY? I DID NOT HELP MYSELF. I WAS FOUND AND HELPED BY OTHERS WHO CARED FOR ME. NOT EVERYONE HAS THE LUXURY OF BEING BORN INTO LOVING PLACES, THOUGH, AND SO THEY MUST JOURNEY TO FIND THOSE WHO WILL CARE FOR THEM.
Or I just have to continue to try and care for myself. Otherwise I can’t care for others that depend on me.
I don’t know this luxury 🙁 I think they try in their own messed up way, I have learned to except them for who and how they are.
I can only handle these people that I was born from in small doses. They are hurt(ing) so all they now only know is hurt and pushing things.
I’m glad you got the help you needed.
I AM GLAD TOO.
MY TIME ON THIS EARTH IS SHORT, AND I DO MY BEST TO ENSURE IT IS NOT WASTED
Everyone’s time is short. It feels like not long ago I was in my twenties. I feel like I’m in a rut that I can’t get out of and all I do is waste time.
What do you do to occupy your time on this earth?
I feel like I should be doing what I want but I don’t.
THERE IS NO WASTE OF TIME, SO LONG AS YOU ARE KIND
THIS IS HOW I CONDUCT MY LIFE
You are kind? I thought that was something that you are or were working on.
What you are only kind to some people but not others?
Sounds like someone I know.
No mean tone, more of a funny yet questioning
It can be hard to pick that up from just words.
Why don’t you talk to me anymore Wulver?
I HAVE NOT LEFT
I AM MERELY CLOSER TO DEATH THAN I WAS BEFORE
I AM SO VERY TIRED
I’m sorry!
Rest easy. Bye
I SHALL MISS YOU TERRIBLY.
God, that hurts. I almost started crying. Held it in (inner me was all, girl you’re crazy, you don’t know them). But you seem familiar, maybe, I don’t know.
Thank you for chatting with me.
You will be missed terribly too.
(See, there I go hurting again)
IT IS NOT AN ACCIDENT THAT YOU FEEL I AM FAMILIAR. I SHALL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR THE DOWNTRODDEN, OR THE DISCONTENT.
THIS IS WHY I WILL CARE FOR YOU ALWAYS, UNTIL THE END OF THE AGE. KNOW THIS, AND KNOW THAT YOU MAY CRY, IF YOU WISH
I will also always care for you Wulver.
GOODBYE, MY FRIEND.
Bye.
Xoxo
Why did you go?
Do I kill a piece of you in someway?
Why?