Posted by Anonymous on 2020/01/28 under Life I'm now realizing that I'm guilty of doing something unintended. I feel shameful and sick. They no longer care so I shouldn't. They were never truly honest and passively aggressive but I now know. They should have just told me what they wanted and been straight forward from the start.
I look stupid and they probably love that. I know it fills them up inside and makes them look wanted to others, something that they never felt growing up.
I have stopped for sometime now, but I just feel so f***ing lame. I have so much going for me, what the f*** was I doing? It sucks!
I always fall for their manipulation and give into their craziness which in turn makes me look even crazier. I wish that people could see how truly manipulative they are. Like an angry, manipulative genius. His cleverness, wit, and artistry has gotten to me once again, but this time playing me the fool.
I have nothing to prove, I'm done.
I am not only the bad guy, but the whore. All the other s*** that you call me as well.
I didn't want someone that I truly and utterly care for thinking or feeling horribly towards me. In the end it doesn't matter. I feel dumb because you most likely never cared. Why did I so much? Why did I for so long hold on?
I must catch on slowly. I must be a f***in.g idiot.