I have been married for a good 12 years now. We have sex often but there is no four play or romance. I have and never will cheat within my marriage. I often want a divorce not because my marriage is bad but because I get board easily. A part of me is in love with that first initial moment of meeting someone. If you have that connection from there it's flirting, it's excitement, it's over all a high to me. Then you slowly get to know them and learn about how someone new thinks, acts, lives…. More than any of that I get such a rush out of kissing them for the first time, touching them, and them touching me. I get so much pleasure from this first initial stage that when I have a dream about it I find myself waking in agony of wanting to get f***ed. I fear that maybe I will never be content with anyone because I am in love with just falling in love. Not the overall length, hard work, and responsibilities that follow. Or just maybe my husband needs to up his game in the romance field.
Or just maybe I’m still completely stuck on a love I’ll never have again.