Posted by Anonymous on 2020/01/05 under Life I am a socially anxious/awkward teenager, and I am very much afraid of what people think of me, my friends, family, random strangers I walk past. I started to obsess over my weight, not being able to do much about it, I'd work out for months, and nothing would come of it, I wouldn't say I'm over-weight, but someone along the average lines, but as I could see nothing no was happening, I just one day started sucking in, for hours, I would suck in my belly, and well, I've been doing it for 3 years now, and when all my friends call themselves fat, and I say no, because they aren't, I say I am, and then they say how I'm a size 10 (uk) jeans and i remember that I'm actually a 12, but the sucking in put me to 10, that says as much as it needs to I guess. And I'm still trying to lose weight so I don't have to hide it, but again, nothing's coming of it, I've changed my diet more times than I can remember, and I'm scared of the outcome this will have on my confidence overall.
I hate watching tv shows where all these girls are so skinny and have abs and can wear whatever they want, and still look skinny and have these amazing bodies, and I how I look nothing like them, and I know I shouldn't, but I do compare myself to them, and looking in the mirror is the biggest part of it, I always come out feeling more self conscious and my confidence is knocked. Well there's my story, and I'm sorry to all the girls out there who feel the same