Posted by Anonymous on 2018/12/24 under Family My family fights almost every day sometime I don't know what it's about because they speak in Spanish but why most they do it everyday it's been a hard time trying to keep myself from going to the bridge near by and ending it all so I can show them that what there doing can effect the little ones greatly I may be a high school student but that doesn't mean that I haven't bared this pain longer then that everyday I tell my self " you can do it just think of all the bad things as a bad dream" but when they all fight and yell so bad that they include me and my sister in it I feel like maybe my grandma was right I should have been aborted but when I think of all the hard things that have come my way I feel as if something good might come in it's place one day if I stay just a little longer so now I wonder should I stay for now and leave on father's day it leave this world now so I dont have to deal with this pain?
Learn to love nature,the trees,the beach,the mountains hills and wind,the animals,nature is healing,soothing,and will protect you,spend all your days there,learn about it,observe,sit and listen,get PEACE there.Make it your own sanctuary.Be kind to yourself,we are all special multidimensional beings,and this moment will pass,i`ve been there.My parents were drunks,always fighting.I found peace in nature.
Thank you for your help I just hope that next year will be better