SPENDING PLAN – BASIC STRUCTURE THAT SUPPORTS US, DOES NOT HAVE TO BE PERFECT
ALL OF US HAVE THIS NOTION THAT THE MONIES PROGRAM IS ABOUT RESTRICTING OURSELVES
WHEN IT COMES TO DEBTING,
I DON’T CARE ABOUT REALITY.
I DON’T CARE ABOUT THIS MONTH . . .
ADRENALINE AND LIVING ON THE EDGE . . .
NORMAL LIFE IS SO BORING // TO BE DESTRUCTIVE
SLIMMING // IT’S NOT A BUDGET // I HAVE TO BE STRICT NOT THE IDEA // SHOW UP FOR OUR NEEDS FIRST // IT CALMS DOWN OUR FEARS AND CHAOS // I’M SO AMAZED BY THE PROGRAM BECAUSE I FEEL CARED FOR // MY HP IS CARING FOR ME THROUGH THE PROGRAM // AND SCARY // I AM AFRAID OF THE NUMBERS // I WOULDN’T BE INTERESTED IN A FINANCIAL SPIRITAUL PROGRAM
NOT ONLY HOW TO LIVE, BUT HOW TO DIE WITH DIGNITY ALSO.
I LIKE TO DIE WITH DIGNITY AROUND SOME LOVING AND CARING PEOPLE. I CAN GO KICKING AND SCREAMING OR I CAN DIE WITH DIGNITY.
THIS IS SOME GROWN FOLK STUFF HERE.
Allowing people to help us can be a form of service. they and we are rewarded.
The caring and sharing we talk about is a two way street.
Hard time having others love us back at our most vulnerable.
INFINITY MEDALLIONS
THE OPTIMISTIC WIZARDS
-GAY BELIEVER
-LITURGY OF THE HOURS
-CLOOUD OF UNKNOWING
-LOUIS MONTFORT (DE)
-SIMONE WEIL
-PIERRE DECHARDIN
AN EXTENSION OF THE HUMAN;
-NUMBER 5 TO SURVIVOR RELATIONSHIPS
CHILDHOOD SEXUAL ABUSE
SIGNIFICANT NUMBERS OF CHILDREN OF ALCHOLICS
SURVIVOR RELATIONSHIPS
LIKELY TO FACE CHALLENGES – CHILDREN OF ALCOHOLICS
HOOKED UP WITH OTHER SURVIVORS
OPPORTUNITES FOR EMPTINESS
OPENING TO TRUST IS SLOW AND ATTENTITIVE
GONE TOO FAR OR SOMEONE HAS GONE TOO CLOSE
JUST WHEN THINGS SEEM TO BE GOING WELL
DEVELOPING FEELINGS OF TRUST AND WELLBEING
LEARNING HOW TO BE RELATIONSHIP WITH
GOD TEACHES US THE LANGUAGE OF PAIN AND SUFFERING
PERHAPS A WORDLESS (WORLDLESS?) LANGUAGE
I FEEL LIKE IF I DON’T DO BETHS WORK FOR HER I WON’T GET WHAT I AM OWED.
THE ANGELS ALL HAVE VANISHED, THE STARS ABOVE ALL HIDE. AND THE VERITY OF CENTURIES ( . . .)
HAVE REALIZED ALL ALONG AGO HAVE DIED ???
SELL YOUR SOUL TO NO-ONE, GIVE ALL YOUR HOPES AWAY FOR FREE. AND DON’T LOOK BACK, ON ALL THE THINGS YOU NEVER HAD, TONIGHT, YOU HAVE ALL, YOU NEED.
TRYING TO GET ATTENTION BY SINNING SEXUALLY WITH LUST?
DOES LUST RHYME WITH JUST? (A POUND OF FELHS (FLESH) NO MORE NO LESS. NO CARTILAGE NO BONE. BUT ONLY FLESH.
THE DIVINE COMEDY
DIVINE BURNING. BURNING THE DIVINE?
TICKLING, BEAR HUGS + I SEE THAT SMILE GAME. (DISRESPECT FUL?)
ACA
DA (IT GIVES A STRUCTURE) (I ALSO FEEL THAT IT IS VERY CARING) (I’VE BEEN SO LOST AND SO CONFUSED)
I HAVE A SPONSOR AND I HAVE SPONSEES
ADDICTIVE PART IN ME – ADDICTION PART OF IT, IT HAS TO GO AWAY RIGHT AWAY //
WHAT I WILL DO THE NEXT DAY – I WILL PLANS
ON THE EDGE OF SINFUL.
THE DELUSION IS THAT WE NEED TO CONTROL.
TRUE CONTROL IS NO, BUT A LITTLE.
SPENDING PLAN – BASIC STRUCTURE THAT SUPPORTS US, DOES NOT HAVE TO BE PERFECT
ALL OF US HAVE THIS NOTION THAT THE MONIES PROGRAM IS ABOUT RESTRICTING OURSELVES
WHEN IT COMES TO DEBTING,
I DON’T CARE ABOUT REALITY.
I DON’T CARE ABOUT THIS MONTH . . .
ADRENALINE AND LIVING ON THE EDGE . . .
NORMAL LIFE IS SO BORING // TO BE DESTRUCTIVE
SLIMMING // IT’S NOT A BUDGET // I HAVE TO BE STRICT NOT THE IDEA // SHOW UP FOR OUR NEEDS FIRST // IT CALMS DOWN OUR FEARS AND CHAOS // I’M SO AMAZED BY THE PROGRAM BECAUSE I FEEL CARED FOR // MY HP IS CARING FOR ME THROUGH THE PROGRAM // AND SCARY // I AM AFRAID OF THE NUMBERS // I WOULDN’T BE INTERESTED IN A FINANCIAL SPIRITAUL PROGRAM
MAKE A LIST OF WHAT WE NEED:
YEARLY BASIS:
PRACTICAL SPIRITUAL PROGRAM
UTILITIES (ELECTRICITY, GAS, WATER)
PHONE BILL
USUALLY DO THIS IN A PRESSURE RELIEF GROUP
RIGHTEOUS TO BE POOR
MAYBE LOOK AT ENTERTAINMENT, MAYBE YOU’RE LONGING FOR A CERTAIN SOUND?
I AM POWERLESS OVER GRETCHEN AND MY LIFE HAS BECOME UNMANAGEABLE.
investigating trauma and finding the trigger that lies beneath them ///////////////
ARCHIVE FEVER
HUMILIATED INTO HUMBLENESS?
TO EXIST IS TO SURVIVE A HUMILIATION?
I CAN’T HAVE TEN THOUSAND CO-SPONSORS (GOD IS MY MAIN SPONSOR FOR OPIATES ANONYMOUS!) SO FORTH
MAKE IT A DOUBLE DOUBLE BLACK MAIL
HUNGRY HUNGRY CATERPILLAR?
INFINITEY MEDALLION????????
KEITH BUCKLEY?
THE FAGGOT AND THE WHORE?
UNHOLY ADAM AND EVE?
LET THE UNIVERSE BREATHE ME.
VEUVE CLIQUOT . . .
IF DRINKING BECOMES BITTER, TURN THYSELF TO WINE
I DON’T REALLY LIKE GETTING OFF OF MY FAT ASS?
GREGORY FRANCIS EIDSON
GREGORY FRANCIS BURWELL
7. GREGORY FRANCIS STANISLAW
6. GREGORY FRANCIS COTTRELL
5. GREOGORY FRANCIS CHILDERS
4. GREGORY FRANCIS EIDSON
3. GREGORY FRANCIS CABRERA
2. GREGORY FRANCIS COTRELL
1. GREGORY FRANCIS BURWELL
GRREGORY FRANCIS COTTRELL 1.
GREGORY FRANCIS STANISLAW 2.
GREGORY FRANCIS CHILDERS 3.
GREGORY FRANCIS EIDSON 4.
GREGORY FRANCIS BURWELL 5.
GREGORY FRANCIS CABRERA 6.