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Posted by Anonymous on 2018/11/16 under Kids

Necronauts,

Our last list continued, but, in a different fashion, this time, regarding non-alcoholic subsstances;

Xanax (.25 mg) (AKA as footballs)

Vicodin (750mg) (5-10 at at a time)

Norcos (10 mg) (5-10 at a time)

Xanax Bars (Sticks) (2mg) (1 -2 in the beginning. Later, sometimes 5-10 throughout the day)

Oxycodone (80mg) (1-2 at a time. Rarely 3. If 3, usually sharing with a girlfriend.)

Roxicodone (30 mg) (3-4 at a time. After oxycontin was discontinued roxis were the next best thing.)

Opana (80mg? perhaps 60?) 1-3 at a time. Worked just as well. Just a different brand, I feel.)

Percocet (I don't know what the mg were. People call them perc 30's often but when I used them we got them from someone in Pasadena who had them after an injury and we only picked these up because the other dealers were out of business at the time.)

Dilaudid (mg unknown) (It was a lot of fun. I can't reacall how much the mgs were but it was a lot of fun. Did it in the girlfriends bedroom. She found them hidden somewhere inside her house from her stepdads surgery.)

Codeine (10 mg? Can''t recall. Just took these to stave off withdrawal between times of lacking in monies.)

Vicodin (500 mg) (these were the least ideal but something at certain times girlfriend and I could steal from. Her M. or my M. Or purchased from a dealer somewhere.)

Heroin (mg unknown) (one shot and after that it wasn't very effective and Mr. Person, who I got it from, was not with me anymore and so I couldn't find the vein on my own. I ended up just stabbing my arms with holes.)

Morphine (purples? mg unknown. perhaps 30?) (got these from someone in near Los Angeles and weren't nearly as powerful as the other drugs I was used to. My tolerance was growing which was pretty bad for an OUD like Me.)

LSD (2 tabs?) (The most horrific event of My existential-existence. It actually might've aided it bringing me closer to emotional sobriety.)

Marijuana (often used but never bought. Only smoked when I couldn't get the main course, so to speak.)

Adderall (30 mg) (used a lot of this toward the end of the recoveries process. Was hanging on for dear existence. Swirling the toilet bowl aand not wanting to go down and die. It has really screwed up my body. I get these really gross tingles that are so ugly and just remind me of being on that stuff without choice.

Ambien (mg unknown) (took these often enough to start hating them. they made me feel really gross and totally insane. I can't imahine (imagine how people use these so often!)

There was another sleep aid that I OD'd on towards the end but can't remember it's called. What was it? A lot of xanax and this other drug but what was it? I keep wanting to say tegretol but that's not it. Samsonite? It's beyond me right now. Sorrow. (Elian Gonzalez?) (Smores?) (Sipapuni?) (Chryskylodon?) (Skunk?)

Temazapan! It was called. I can't recall how much the milligrammage was but it really knocked me out which is all I ever wanted.

Cocaine (an 8 ball, a nights worth, and two more nights worth of binging on it and talking my head off.)

And that's the inventory of Xanthers drug use. I appreciate you being of service in listening to this.

Also took the Seroquel in the withdrawal phases but it really just made things worse. It really sucked. Just made a tiredness fall over me. And theres a difference betewen being knocked out and being tired. Sometimes being knocked out issues a response of energeticness and excitement and frequency. This drug did not tap into that zone.

As well as;

Purple Drank; I'd stolen these from family members who no longer had their cold and so no longer had use for thier bottles and purple drank has codeine so that is all I cared about. Siphoning the opiates from the atmosphere.

And Nyquil and all that kind of stuff. Just to try to recreate the experience of an opiated highness.

I'm pretty sure that's it.

Does that equal enough powerlessness yet?

Silently Anonymous,

-The Archer

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