Posted by Anonymous on 2018/11/13 under Family Necronauts, Just had a meeting of Recoveries Anonymous with the little one. It went well. M. is still being a curel-cruelfulness about Me looking for the keys in her garments. She acts like she cares, and then she becomes diabolical. It is very difficult to bring into the open. Has anyone else had this experiential experience before? It's like the stones on their eyes are so heavy. I remember when she used to brag about how her dead-brother stole the tip from the waiter when her siblings and parents were younger. She sees herself through Ullrich and His Sister. It is all so twisted. She allways calls Ullrich a manipulator but the irony is she's just narrating her actions in real-time. It is perhaps funny for the smallest microcosmic nanosecond and then becomes insufferably-unbearable. When did she become so mean? The heart of the matter is that what really gets her off, is beings of an infantile nature. Once they begin to express an individual character resembling the possibly of an adult, she despises them. It is so disheartening and there is no way out of it. Has anyone experienced this kind of experiential trauma before? (I am not to blame and I am not alone.) There is a world surrounded by blamelessness but the martyrs of existence prefer to blame the big other. What the big other is, I do not know. So, this is where I'm at. I am really glateful that sister G. was able to participate in the emptiness of R-A but we can't count on her coming back, we can only pray, hope, and empty our hearts of the unexpected-unexpectedness. The end is built into the beginning, and, there is no-end, there is no-beginning, there is just this, this storyless, boringless, emptiness of God-Himself. Please stand by, -The Archer Mono-no aware