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Posted by on 2018/10/25 under Life

Have you ever entered into a dark room? Have you felt like the walls around you would collapse and you would be buried alive? You wouldn't die instantly but slowly, maybe even lay there for days until someone from a search team found you. You have no food, no water, just silence and your thoughts and excruciating pain. You pray for help, for this help to come and all the while all you are thinking of is your family, your friends. You know the thoughts that come to you at 3 in the morning. I am so upset now that my stomach is churning, my head is spinning, and I feel like I am going to vomit. My husband and I are ending our marriage of almost 20 years. It is okay but it still hurts and I can feel my throat burning and the vomit start to surface. This whole situation had made me physically sick to my stomach. The feeling of knowing you are not loved is more than I can bare. It is such anguish feeling up my body and my soul. Knowing you can love and someone will love you back is the greatest feeling in the world but knowing you are not loved is too much pain to bear almost so that you don't even want to exist anymore.

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