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Posted by on 2018/08/26 under Life

I know, we'll never be on the same site, because we love different things.
I actually don't know what brought us together any more. I kind of wish it was more than just because we both tried to kill ourselves when we were young, although I can't promise I won't do it again, and I know, you can't, neither.
I wish it was more than just about suicide, I really do.
I wish we had many interesting conversations, although most of the time, we think differently somehow.
We watch different films, read different books. It was just such a magic how we still kept our conversation going.

You could say you were putting up with me, because there was no one else that you could spend hours and hours, days and days talking to. You were just killing time, while I was just loving you.

You know you never responded, do you? You know you never give a damn, when I tell you what hurts me most. I know it might sound strange, you never let me know your friends, you never let your friends know me.
Although it feels a bit unfair to me, coz your friends know about your first(first or second?) love when you said I was one of the most important people you loved.
Do you, actually?

Or we were just two different people, come from two different places, with two different minds, that were never supposed to meet each other in the first place?
Or the whole thing was actually just a mistake?

I even didn't expect you to come from Australia. I didn't ever think my best friend would come from Australia.
I know I like Australia, but I don't want to like Australia while you think you hate me. Probably even it was such a big mistake for me to get to know Australia in the first place, because of you.
I wish I had loved Australia without knowing you, though.

It was really a big mistake, although strangely, it felt right somehow.
But…Does it?
Maybe I'll find the right answer 30 years from now.

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