I dont know, as of recent i have been feeling very empty. as if i have nothing to truly live for. I also have a crushing fear of the one i love dying suddenly. Its very crippling. Considering i have recently had to deal with the death of someone close to me,it has made me come to terms with the reality and inevitability of death. I am scared, scared for myself, im scared for the ones i love.I dont want to feel the pain and grief i felt when that person died and i never want to see one person in pain.im just so terrified, even so i have to be n my phone constantly to know they are okay and doing well. Its having a negative affect on my mental health and my depression has gotten worse. Im tired all the time because im constantly keeping myself up with my thoughts