Posted by Anonymous on 2018/01/16 under Love Ever feel like you have nobody to turn to in your darkest moments because your either to embarrassed or feel like nobody will understand how you feel. Well here reading this you do have someone to relate or talk to. Let me start from the beginning where i was totally happy. I wouldn't say i was obsessed with this boy, but oh man this boy Alex Rodriguez with the amazing sparkling brown eyes, dark as the night sky hair, and the most funniest person you will ever meet. It didn't start off as a crush it started off as this amazing friendship (note:if your friendship comes with this i assure you it's not going to end right)where we both will laugh at everything and throw paper at each other and talk about sex and all kinds of crap. Talking about sex lead to everyday conversation which started turning into a non friendship feeling. I didn't knoww what i was getting myself into, but i didn't care what anyone thought all i cared about about him and wanted a relationship with him.Tuns out he didn't feel the same way and we tried to carry on as friends which wasnt a good idea. We carried on with our lives talking and doing the SAME thing we were doing before. Then guess what i fell for him harder than i ever did. I didn't want the same thing that happened before to happen again so i kept my mouth shut. Here came this girl that everyone liked, a girl that all my friends were friends with, a girl that Alex liked.See i had no problem with her but all the problems came up when i gave Alex his christmas gift. I don't know if she liked him or was threatened by me but she started the drama that led me to feel like this right now. The drama that led to block Alex or everything and forget he doesn't even exist. But who knew this decision turned out to be the most miserable thing for me ever.