Posted by Anonymous on 2017/12/27 under Life 3 kids, disabled husband, marriage is s***, relationship is s***. I can leave but if I did I would have to quit one job that keeps us afloat. Feeling alone. Feeling jaded. Why won't he even try? Not depressed but just sad it comes to this. I'm stuck in a rut that I'm fighting to get out of but yet need to stay in to make it. I'm on the cusp on going under or staying afloat depending on how you look at it. Why can't you see I've stopped trying? Maybe you just never really cared in the first place. How much attention did you pay me in the beginning that you no longer notice now? How many times can you break something into so many pieces that those pieces just become sand? I'm not whole but I'm not broken. I am numb. I go through the motions. Day after day.