So i’ve been home for about 3 days now, I didn’t tell my friends at uni that I was going back and i’ve had no contact from any of them. I always thought I was being stupid when i thought no one cared, obviously I was wrong. There is no point in my being, just a waste of time, money and space that other successful people should be given. The only stopping me from killing myself is the realization that once I’m dead, that feeling of relief, knowing that it’s all over, will never come. Once you’re dead, you feel nothing. I don’t want that, I want the feeling of relief, the knowledge that ‘everything’s going to be OK’ and I cant achieve that through death.
i know exactly how you feel. i once thought noone cared bout me and attempted suicide and failed but that was the scariest moment of my life. i did it because i am bisexual and my girlfriend dumped me for another girl and came out for her, and ithought why not me. but just know that at the end of the day their is someone that truely cares about you, and you might have not met them yet.
Thank you. That’s encouraging. After writing this and waiting for a day, I feel a lot better.
You sound like a really nice guy. Well there are so many girls out there who have great aonserplities and are attractive. Go out more and find girls that you are interested in. Like parks, library, cafes etc. I am into astrology too and I think your best matches would be Sagittarius, Libras, Geminis and Leo also aries. Go out more and you’ll definitely find someone. Don’t give up though. You’ll make someone happy and you’ll find a girlfriend.