Its been 3 years now. Not a day has gone by without me thinking of you. I do everything in my power to try and find you, so we can be can be together once again, but nothing works. My plans are shut down the moment they are put into motion, my heart aches as I see young couples in each other's arms as I walk along the road. I wonder; do you remember me? Will I ever find you? Have you reached happiness elsewhere? Am I to wither my life away, dreaming of you, as life laughs at me? As if this entire thing is just a divine prank; God punishing me for something that I will never know. Why, God, why have you forsaken me?
And if, by whatever miracle, you are reading this article, and perhaps you recognize the writer, know that I love you, I will continue to love you, and I will never relent in my search for you, even if it is the only thing I will do with my life; to find you again would make it worth it.
As I read the first few sentences of this post I thought it was one of my own. I am feeling exactly what you are feeling here. Except I can no longer find him..my finanće pasted away last month. So I would like wish you the best in finding whoever you are looking for. Since I cant find happiness anymore I wish that you can.
I am so, so sorry for your loss. I thank you, for wishing happiness on others when you believe you may never feel it again. You are a stronger person than I, and I pray that you shall find one who can show you joy once more.