I want to go away forever. Now when I say that, I don't necessarily mean suicide, I just mean from this reality that I call my life. If anyone ever reads this, keep in mind that I'm only young but not too young. Every time I talk, I'm only 'talking back'. When I stay quiet, I'm 'being disrespectful'. I'm criticized on everything I do because 'it's not the right way'. I don't want to keep throwing my emotions through my screen except I'm just so tired of everything. I know things get better, they mostly always do. But I'm just really tired now. My friends say they'll always be there for me, but they never were yet because I always hide my pain and act cheerful and always smile. I like smiling in front of them, they make me feel better usually by just being themselves. But it's lonely. I just want to be at peace with myself. Damn it, I'm crying again and I'm just tired.
I honestly know how you feel. I think your going through the same thing I did. I wanted to be alone and away from the world. Away from friends and family. Forget that. All of it. You need to be near everyone no matter how badly you wanna be alone
Thanks for reading and replying, I forgot that I wrote this a while back. I’m doing better now, but of course I still feel that way every once in a while. Although a few things did get better like I knew they would, I still go through what I wrote above, just with a more optimistic point of view.