Posted by Anonymous on 2013/05/10 under Uncategorized hello i go by the name Ray.. like a ray of sunshine 🙂 I got a big problem and I was hoping somebody might be able to give me some advice and help me.
Ok, so about 2 years ago I decided to not be “myself” anymore. I have taught myself how to hide my emotions. I met a group of people in college and I basically learned how to react with them all; ill explain myself.. There are 3 girls 4 guys in the group and I have learned how they all act and how they like to be treated and how they react to certain situations to the point where I am not being myself around them..Im just being the person they want me to be. This has gotten pretty serious when like yesterday or the day before that(dont trully remember)I looked at the mirror and I saw this whole new person who I didnt even know existed. I kept my style how I like it, that never changed but I look at myself differently because I realized I dont really know who I am. Or am I just the girl who would be whatever ud like her to be? Is that me?
“as we become older, without knowing it we all become masters of disguise”
becoming an adult nowadays sadly means hiding ur true self and becoming someone that the society wants u to be,
I bet ur a beautiful person who is just having trouble around society. Do you consider yourself attractive? Because I too used to not be myself just for acceptance.
being physically attractive has nothing to do with it though, i am pretty sure the writer is talking abt how she just doesnt know who she is herself, and her personality and behavior is affected by ppl around her. like she will behave in a way that will please the people around her and not in a way that she likes herself.
But J, I just dont want to believe so… I used to say I would never change for anybody! I remember who i was. . .this person sooo strong who even lost her parents and helped her older brothers through it 🙂 Somebody who deserved respect..not like who i am now. :/ I know im still a good person but, I would love to feel like I dont have to hide from anybody. I am a very happy person and I still want to be. And well friend, people say im quite a hottie 🙂 and imm bisexual and think so too haha 😀
i know but sometimes ppl seem to act in that way because they feel theyre not good enough to be thereselves. which is stupid as fudge because fudge what everyone else thinks! theres always gonna be somebody like you Ray. its not easy but, not impossible either
i understand what u r saying ma’am, and i understand bcoz im exactly who u r right now. i have no idea who i truly am, i promised myself i will never ever change, but i guess life got too tough on me and i changed. im still a very nice person, but im not myself anymore. i used to be myself, but noone liked me, and so i changed myself into a person that everyone loved to be with. sometimes im happy that i changed bcoz now i have a lot of friends and ppl that care abt me, but sometimes im really sad bcoz no one truly knows me and the pain i hide behind the fake smile i wear everyday. i wish someone would accept me for who i truly am, but now i feel its like too late, i have already lost myself and i dont even recognize the person i see in the mirror anymore.
But, I dont think theyre the ones changing me… they are pretty nice and everything IM THE ONE who changed. They didnt make me, its a choice i made myself.
and i dont want to be like this trust me, but as i said before, it has become the extremely sad reality of life as most adults nowadays are fake, and their true personalities has been hidden away under the layers of fakeness that they have developed over the years.
Thats whut I dont understand. Ive always gotten a long with mostly everybody. I didnt change to be accepted. I changed maybe to accept myself.. ITS REALLY CONFUSING AND IT GETS ME FRUSTRATED. U.U
well for u, im glad u had a choice. for me i had no choice. be myself and have no friends. or be someone else and have people that care abt me, and i took the easy way.
well u r not happy with urself right now right? and so u changed once bcoz u wanted to, im sure u can change urself again into who u were before all this 🙂
..and lose the people that swear to love me
exactly my fear ma’am 🙁
:/ Well if its any help.. I find you to be a great friend you just proved that by being urself. 🙂 it would be great to be ur friend.
Wow, thank you ma’am, I really appreciate that 🙂 . I wish people tht I know in real life thought like tht too, but I guess not.
amm what do u mean by ma’am ?! thats all what i noticed from the whole conversation :p
j are u a female ?!
Ma’am is a respectful term for a female, ma’am stands for madam. And no, I’m a guy just turned 18.
oh ok i got it .. i am 18 too i thought u r a girl so i wanted to be ur friend .. but i dont talk with guys .. so i have just deleted that idea from my mind 🙂
No worries ma’am it is nice talking to u, we can still be friends, it doesn’t matter, just pretend im a girl 🙂
first im not the writer of this post i just wrote the last there comments ..
and im sorry but its my rules i dont wanna have any guys as my friends 🙂
That’s okay ma’am, I wish u good luck for ur life 🙂
thanks ,, u too 😀
U r welcome random stranger 🙂