26-04-12(4:41:13)
Why am I being left out? I went bowling with a friend, my two cousins, and my brother. We’re supposed to feel close, like family (especially my bro) but I never felt more alone than in that instant. They played around each other and cheered each other on, even when they did a horrible job [..more..]
04-04-12(15:58:07)
Right well, somehow I have been surviving without any income for 6 months!!! It was awesome while it lasted, but guess what my dumb ass didnt do anything to solidify my carefree lifestyle. Not good, now I owe money to a whole s*** load of creditors, and all I want to do is find a [..more..]
02-04-12(22:14:31)
AHHHHH. Gah, I’m venting my spleen all up on this page because I’m fahreaking. I hate writing essays, it is the worst, tooth-pulling experience of my student life. Failing at school scares me. If I don’t do well in school, then I probably won’t get a real job, and if I don’t get a real [..more..]
21-03-12(3:15:07)
There’s just so much crap that’s happened to me when I was four. Yes, four. Everything happened after my parents divorced… I would copy and paste (I have a journal, password protected of course, and it had my story…) my story here, but am I allowed to take up a few pages? Guessing not… I’m [..more..]
13-03-12(23:18:47)
Well things are looking up 🙂 Sort of getting used to being at home, trying to find a job and to be honest quite excited about earning some money. I hate how to have any kind of fun you need at least some money, even to see my friends, i have to get a bus [..more..]
05-03-12(5:48:16)
Why won’t you notice me? I cried. Fine, I cried beneath my glasses so you wouldn’t see my tears, but isn’t that your job? TO tell when I’m feeling down, even through my fake smiles and silliness. Why doesn’t anyone notice. I thought that maybe he did notice, because he came over and sat down [..more..]
14-02-12(21:39:13)
Sitting on work. Crazy day. I work here almost a year. But still have so many questions. Not knowing something about that and that. This makes me very pissed. I have to know everything. But that’s too much to handle for one man. One should work for about 10 years to know everything about his [..more..]
08-02-12(6:25:33)
I am frustrated right now. I feel like my life is going on around me and I am on a ride that is going to fast for me to jump off. I had to quit my job due to health issues and although the health issue have not resolved i am finding myself feeling antsy. [..more..]
05-02-12(19:49:43)
I have managed to dig myself into a hole that I can’t seem to get out of.. I have the person I am with. All I end up doing is caring about their feelings, health, thoughts,etc…. I need to stop with the crazy stuff and start remembering how valuble I am! I am a good [..more..]
03-02-12(2:47:01)
You know i realised a while back that i could never live my life the way i always dreamed it to be. i just wanted a simple life just get married have a couple of kids not work my ass off just get a job that the pay was average have a couple of close [..more..]