My mind knows but my heart doesn’t want to listen.
I know that he’s in a relationship now. I know that he likes her. I know that they’re continuing to become closer and closer. …Yet, why do I have this attraction towards him? Is it because I have made the second leap from acquaintance to friends? Is it because he acknowledges my presence and jokes [..more..]
She’s Never Going To Love You Like I Want To, You Just See Right Through Me But If You Only Knew Me…
There is this guy ok? And he like, beyond beautiful and perfect. His eyes are green, and he has perfect white teeth, and messy sandy colored beach hair. He plays football, and says the funniest things. Picture Leonardo Dicaprio in Titanic days. That is what this kid looks like. I have known his for awhile [..more..]
Everything I’ve Wanted.
If you have seen my last post- STW9999 title name is broken. You’ll understand this.. So this boy, my love… everyday, I see him and his new girlfriend every day, it seems like almost everywhere I walk at school I see them and I get even more heartbroken. Never in a million years did I [..more..]
Sadness in My Heart
I dated this guy my whole high school days. We broke up because we did not want to have to deal with the long distance relationship. However, we have kept a strong, honest, fun friendship. He constantly makes jokes about being in a relationship again since we are almost finish with college. I really love [..more..]
Missing something that isn’t there any more…
If I could just put all the pictures that are in my head right now on paper… I would have the most emotional photo album of all time… At least emotional for me… I’m sure everyone has one like that in their minds. All of mine are from my home… the real home… the one [..more..]
Loneliness
The hardest things to do is to watch the one you love, love someone else. The memories that replay in my head day in and out, brings dark and painful thoughts.Tears no longer fall from my face, smiles are not longer real. Moving on is hard and even harder when your heart and brain fight [..more..]
Split in 4.
My heart is split in 4 different directions, I am not a guy who will cheat or even think about doing it, but I am so in love with 4 girls but the one I am in love with the most is taken and has been for the past year. We are best friends and [..more..]
Walking in the shadows of Perfection.
I have my best friend. She is amazing. A little too much so. Every time I have interest in a guy, every time they meet her, it’s like I am invisible. It sucks. How could I ask someone to give up on what they think is better and want them to be with something they [..more..]
darkness..
I used to smile… a cheerful nd pure smile.. i used to be innocent… although i had my days wer ove had people fool me nd use me.. beginning from an unloving nd lyinh father left .. men hav always been d same nd growing up i observed a truth that love is a joke, [..more..]
Will I ever be able to love?
So when I was 20 I fell in love with this guy. He was 18 and we were friends. We then started to talk and hang out more than what friends should. We ended up in each other’s arms holding each other while we slept and at parties and in every moment. He started to [..more..]