15-12-11(18:04:02)
i have never written here , i am not sad or neither but i like writing even if is just in a paper , now i saw a place to write so , here i am. i also had love that this but its nothing to do with this , today when i was working [..more..]
16-11-11(1:08:10)
It’s halfway through November, and with every day closer to December, I feel worse. I’m having nightmares, I’m hypersensitive, I don’t want to wake up in the morning, I want to hurt myself and I’m obsessively craving affection from men again… I’m afraid of this person that’s inhabiting my body, the person that always does [..more..]
10-11-11(1:01:44)
Scream. Writhe. Wriggle. I squirm inside my body, my words and feelings screaming in my mind. Speak. To afraid of offending, scaring, confusing, I remain silent. With thoughts yelling soundless in my throat. I scream inside my skin. I wriggle beneath my bones. I fear the worst, for shallow minds cannot hear. I scream. So [..more..]
19-08-11(17:43:19)
Stop here… I said stop here.what is wrong with you.. Look at me .!!!! Just look at me.!!! Aaaahh……….. I have No words for describing to yourself…… I just thought about yourself….you are very ambitious lady… You can do all that types of works which we never want to touch it.. You always want to [..more..]
12-08-11(18:42:21)
Am heart broken … i tell myself am gonna be fine your just a one man ive been heart broken once before .. but the fact we love each other and want to be together hurts .. i think that maybe it would feel better if you never loved me anymore .. but the fact [..more..]
11-08-11(9:59:30)
I kind of dont feel real anymore … i feel like one night i’ll go to sleep and then ill just wake up and a new life will be waiting for me. But isnt that Death? Will i just move on and my soul will pass to another body? what i dont understand is that [..more..]
06-08-11(14:15:19)
DMF I will forever love you…… My heart aches for your my body longs for you my soul lonely for you…..Age is no barrier and distance is no obstacle…. If you want to be with me you will feel the same.. so come on baby send me a sign… <3 forever yours love always MLD
I feel mixed. I love you and you don’t even know it! We’ve been talking now for three years! and even though our relationship has always been more physical… I wish that you would see me for me and not my body. We haven’t had sex yet, and I can’t wait! Hopefully things will change [..more..]
You held my best friend, your girlfriend, at arms length, looked into her eyes, said ‘i cant do this.’ and left. I walked to our hill and you were standing there alone, you looked more than sad. I ran up the hill towards you and you turned around just as I tripped over my own [..more..]
My trip down South was good but not…. Good because it gave me time away from here but not because it didnt include you…. I didnt even see you although I did do a couple of drive bys wishing you would come out just at that moment but then scared in case you did…..I cant [..more..]