how i really feel
i’m so fed up of acting happy of laughing and smiling all day in school everyone thinks i’m fine. im not. i get home lie in bed and cry. i’m so weak i lie there crying vutting and purging. i hate myself. IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE. im so complicated to stupid and weird [..more..]
The Heart Bleeds
I am so good at hiding all that I am feeling inside. I just… put this mask on and walk out the door. But every time I come home, I run to my room and sink to the ground. Tears always fill my eyes and I cry and let out all this pain. The reality [..more..]
Caught between what is right and love.
I have been in love with this boy for four years ok? And he has a girlfriend I always though he hated me. But Friday after school, when we were both in the study hall alone, he kissed me. And not just a kiss, he full on made out with me. Tongue to tongue and [..more..]
:(
Somebody please be my friend.. I need a friend.. anyone.. I’m so lonely. All of my so called “friends” abandoned me because I was diagnosed with cancer and they didn’t want to deal with me being sick. I don’t even want to get in touch with them anymore because they are all drunks or druggies… [..more..]
Why…
My boyfriend is an a******… everyday he says mean things like “You’re stupid… You’re dumb.” If I want to do anything with him or ask him a favor I always have to give him liquor in return. He terrifies me when he’s trashed too. He will get even meaner and beat the s*** out of [..more..]
THE GIRL I LOVE BUT I WILL NEVER SEE HER AGAIN
I love her so much i would kill to get her back in my life she died of cancer and ive been heart broken eversince. i started dating her last january. I love this girl, I really do,and i love her so much that i would kill myself to be in heaven with her and [..more..]
lies
I should be happy that he cares enough to ask how I am, get worried when something doesn’t feel right, protective when im sad, understanding when Im mad, anything. instead im scared, scared ill never be able to stand on my own, ive never been able to act on my own, always worried what he [..more..]
lies
I should be happy when people like the things I draw and make, right? so why is it that when people say they like them or compliment them, do I hate them even more? that I want to get rid of them and erase all memory of them?
Pleaseeee I need this place…
I found a beautiful apartment.. I really want it. I applied today but someone else already applied… I hope that I’m the one who gets accepted. I need a place to live and I really love this place.. I pray and pray.. who ever reads this.. pray for me too..
friends arent here
my 2 friends r suppost to be coming but there not here boo hoo boo hoo boo hoo