*sobs*
i’m not supposed to be talking to him since i’m with someone else.. and i’ve told him that too.. like a million times.. but i still can’t help myself; i’ve sent him an email today to make sure if he’s okay or not, if the storm had hit their state or not.. (even though last [..more..]
R.I.P
Its been a day since i lost one of my bestfriend, litterally i have known him my entire life. He died because of cancer. I really miss him, and i seems that i cant get over it. I feel really dissapointed in myself not to see him every week or something. I feel guilt not [..more..]
How do i make my dreams come true?
I have always wanted to be a model. Ever since I was very young and I want to make this possible because it would make me the happiest person alive. Just to be able to make my dreams come true. But where do I start? How can I do this? I want to do Victoria’s [..more..]
So happy
Today I am soooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!
don’t know whats happening around
is it some kind of confusion or just nothing important. right now some workshop is going on and i can hardly understand what she was saying. might be there is some problem with speaker. i don’t care whatever is happening. yes,first i want to take this workshop seriously but after seeing the environment i am [..more..]
ASDFGHJKL
you make me go ASDFGHJKL
Dont Know Anymore
I like 4 guys right now. I dont know which one to choose. I feel like all I wanna do is cry. What should I do? I am tired of cutting myself knowing that I dont know what to do. The guys dont even know I am talking to other guys and that I like [..more..]
just got married
hurts when everything went so fast even it was already 3 years , now im feeling that its better to be alone that to be with someone and be hurt and will end up hurting each other feelings
Thoughts of lost Buddhist
What I’m trying to imagine is that our physical body. What we percieve as us. Our body is simply a vessel of sorts, a vehicle we drive. Let’s say that one day we’re at home, a place we love and feel safe. Suddenly we find ourselves in this new place. We like this new place, [..more..]
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i missed him so bad. he’s currently out of town, again. i mean, we’ve known each other for years and this would probably be the longest time i have been separated from him. i know he’s been working hard on preparing a new big project since august. some said he catch a terrible flu that [..more..]