Thinking too much
I lay here thinking more and more as the days go past the years roll by what could of been what could be but I never seem to be able to find an answer. Have I lost the love of my life or will I ever find that person that loves me for me? Will [..more..]
Soft spot, weak spot
You are so successful in many things you do. If you have any obvious weakness, I guess it’s me. Because our tasks are so interconnected. You enemy would try to drag you down by first attacking me. I’m sorry that this happens all the time. I know it’s not my fault, it’s their fault. But [..more..]
I want to talk.
I keep realizing my fear of forming any form of close relationships. No, even telling someone something about myself frightens me.I come off as a very open and outgoing person, but really, I’ve become afraid of deep friendships. Of deep conversations. I hate small talk, but it seems that is all I can do for [..more..]
Will be alright~
Sorrow will fade….love will fade…broken heart will slowly heal… I will be alright soon~ I will be…. I will be alright
Have everything but……
hard work is the key to get anything…… i know it… i gave my 100%…… and m successful in professional career.. but even after give more than i have i couldn’t win her heart….. always try to make her happy…. but couldn’t make her to fall in love with me…. its been 2 years all [..more..]
Meaningless life
If it wasn’t for my parents and dog, i would have killed myself a long time ago. I guess I have a problem in myself, which i cannot quite comprehend, but all the “friends” that i have are not really true friends. I realize i have never had real friends, people just don’t like me [..more..]
bored
okay I accidentally deleted this the first time but whatever. well it’s currently 4am and Im really bored. my arm is swollen and I hurts. I told my mom and she told me to go to sleep and it will get better. but I can’t sleep bc it hurts. today I woke up at 2 [..more..]
get rid of me
it hurts so much being alone, im tired of loving only me… i hate me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ;( somebody please destroy my entire existence, i dont know why i am here.
forgetting what i want
why wont you look at me? why am i not good enough? i am handsome, but you dont beleive me. maybe on the outside i am not perfect, but i swear i have a pure heart. you say you wish you’d find somebody perfect, but i am still alone. i wish i could taste your [..more..]
i am a fool.
i am not worth her. i belong to nobody. i love her, she loves somebody else. she cries for him, i cry for her. she hates him, i love her. she knows, but im ugly. im not worth it. im not good enough. yet here i am, writing about her and much i wish i [..more..]