Posted by Anonymous on 2018/06/27 under Life I know people will say im just exaggerating or over reacting but sometimes youll just feel very very unlucky you would wish to be dead or havent live at all. I hate myself. Its like i always fail at work. I have passed my resignation letter because i cant take it anymore. I am paranoid. I feel like everyone is laughing at or thinking im such an idiot. Im nit good at my work and i have the most number of mistakes at work. Im not like this before. I feel that sometimes i say things wrong and i think people think im dumb. I feel so small. I am about to leave my work but something wrong that I made was being discussed by my coworkers. I feel like im really dumb and I want to be dead but you know i always go to church for guidance. Sometimes i think if the Lord let this happen
I somehow can relate to what you’re saying. Always feeling like you don’t belong and are always misunderstood. And this feeling messes us up so much that we’re not calm or at peace and this messes up our work too. I feel like every one is always staring at me, making fun of my depression. I get anxiety from even small interactions. But the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I am not alone and this is just a phase. I have been hit by anxiety really bad once and I almost went rock-bottom, like just wanting to end my life and all the madness. But I survived. And I know you will to. I hope you find something you love and are good at. Maybe God is teaching you patience…
Thank you for replying. Yeah. I hope this is just a phase. Cause every damn place I work is like this. Im trying to change my career but its not really that simple especially if your parents tell you your wasting your college course. But i really hate my job. I tried to love it but it really isnt for me. I resigned but was hired again with the same work that i have for the past three yrs. Im only 22 but i feel so old and useless. I moved to a different city and I hope this will somewhat change what I feel about myself for the past few years