Posted by Anonymous on 2015/11/27 under Uncategorized The holidays are always pretty rough for me. At least for the past 3 years. My eating disorder has really gotten to me and it’s been pretty mild for the past 6 months or so. I’ve eaten a lot of junk lately and it keeps giving me worse and worse panic attacks. Today was thanksgiving and we are driving back late from Michigan. My sister was hungry and we stopped by McDonald’s to eat. I don’t eat fast food ever and this was the first time in 3 years that I have eaten there. I am internally panicing right now. I feel like I’m just growing and getting fatter and fatter. I’m trying to stay calm but it is just taking over me. Why can’t I just break free. I feel trapped in my own corpse and I don’t know what to do or where to go. I am so weak.
I don’t know why its so much pressure to be skinny, I am a female as well but I love my curvy friends, yes i am skinny because i was this way all my life, thats my type of body i guess and sometimes i wish i had a pound or two extra, i am tired of being always bony, I feel so bad you feel like u are fatter, do u follow like a low calorie diet? Please don’t stop eating because u wanna lose wait, u can get sick, and life its more beautiful than pleasing author ppl of how u look, because we try to look good not for ourselves, but for others, so we can get more attention.
If its bothering you to be overweight, work out more and eat little, but eat, and try to stay focused on your inner self, of what you want to do in life and not waste it.
I know how you feel. I used to be anorexic with a bmi lower than 15,4. I am still kinda. Eat. For God’s shake eat. Otherwise you will be admitted to hospital. Before that you will lose LOTS of hair, you will be dizzy all the time you wont have the energy to do things you will lose your friends you will become deprssed. Is this what you want? Skinny is not nice. Seeing other people’s bones is creepy and disgusting. God did nit make us anorexic. We should alk maintain a normal and gealthy weigh in ordr to live.
You’re beautiful, man or woman, and you will make it. You never need to feel like that, whatever you gotta do to get where you want with yourself, you will. No panicking, just be calm and you’ll make it.