Posted by Anonymous on 2015/11/27 under Uncategorized I really feel empty these days. ew.
it’s so embarrassing that im even writing something on a website anonymously like this too. but i guess imma just ride the impulsive wave that i feel right now.
i feel upset. im blessed, but i feel so worthless. who cares if i get good grades if i can’t remember anything that i learn after i leave the class? who cares about grades if i can’t use what i learn? even if i do well, i can’t use anything in order to do things that actually matter. im not contributing anywhere to anyone. im just a dumb leech who’s leeching off everyone and can’t contribute whatsoever. i want to do something with my life but i have no idea what that something is. and i doubt that i even have the skills to do so either.
i know my worth isn’t found in accomplishments or others’ praise…. but even if i know that’s true, i don’t believe it. i know it. but i don’t feel it. so i guess i don’t actually believe it, do i? and i guess i don’t actually know it either.
prob gonna regret sending this in ohwell.
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Why not please yourself first? How can you expect to love or help others when you can’t do it to yourself? Remember, this life is yours to live. You can’t spend it trying to please the rest… Learn to love yourself then love others
I’m a college student in the middle of my undergrad, I turn 21 in a little less than a month.
Let me start by saying that I’m assuming you’re in high school. The grades matter if you plan on going to college, though I note your inquisitive and practical manner from your post.
I highly encourage you to expand your horizons outside of the American public school system and become independent in your academic pursuits. Find something you’re passionate about and learn all you can about it, the knowledge will be pleasing to obtain and it won’t feel like a daunting chore like it is with more boring subjects.
There are so many barriers that will block you as a young person from succeeding in this economy. Overcoming yourself is the biggest but simplest obstacle to overcome. Make yourself better for your sake, and you can do anything for others.
I grew up in dire poverty, single mom on welfare, and I felt like a worthless leach. I’m still trying to convince myself that my life is worth living. But when it comes down to it, you determine your own worth. You may have to show that to the world, and some people won’t want to hear it because they are classist f***ers. But if every one of us poor children succumbed to the faults of our parents, the faults of society, nothing would get better.
The way I see it for myself, is that I’m going to try my hardest and if it isn’t good enough I’ll just off myself. I encourage you to do the same. Though for every millennial that commits suicide from lack of resources I just have to ask, who’s have fault, the individual or society? Truly I feel that this country has let the young poor down as it always has. The only difference is that we face far too many barriers today than previous generations.
Simply put, it’s a challenge for us to be happy, and so many people don’t want us to be successful and happy. If society wants to watch us suffer just to spit us out then I am convinced that we’ve done nothing wrong.
It’s sad that such talent as ours is neglected, unappreciated, and forced into waste. Great young minds like ours have a world of good to offer and yet we’re looked down upon because there isn’t the space for us to move up. Moving up would take the space and resources for some rich guys kid. The oligarchs don’t want us to succeed lest we challenge them.
Maybe killing ourselves would send a message, maybe we should kill ourselves out of spite for those who work so hard to keep us down. Maybe, just maybe, we should live on to end this suffering. Maybe we should at least try to make a change because, and this is a crazy prospect, maybe we’ll succeed?
Though we’ll never know if we don’t try. In the mean time, I’m going to go back to being alone, hungry and broke for the holidays with nowhere to go, and try to talk myself out of suicide once again. I hope nobody ever has to go through this, but if they do I hope they emerge from the catastrophe a better person.
Hey
so first off, i just wanted to say thanks. i’m grateful that you took the time to reply to my rant/blob-like post. it was comforting to know that someone saw my thoughts and cared enough to reply. even though we probably are in very different situations, im glad that we could sort of relate to one another and share some problems.
happy thanksgiving. even though life probably sucks right now, i’d have to say it’s still worth living. for me, i guess i shouldn’t complain too much. but even if it seems like life isn’t worth it (and i mean seems)…it’s still worth it. if you live, you can still change. if you live, things can get better. but if you don’t live…it’s the end – at least for the life on this earth. i believe that as long as there is one person who cares, one person… one reason to live… then that means we should live. we must live.
i sincerely believe it when i say life is precious. my friend actually passed away recently…and i was reminded that living is truly a gift. even if life seems to be meaningless.
so yeah… i guess in summary i’m trying to say, please don’t commit suicide? there’s no way i comprehend what struggles you may be going through…but you are clearly precious and intelligent and loved. man, corny as it sounds, you’re worth a lot. and so… yeah,
hope you have a good holiday season. here are some smiley faces to cheer you up….
🙂 😀 XD
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that was supposed to be a bunny for you too.
yep.
hope i cheered you up? a bit?
if that didn’t help here’s a corny joke too
What is Bruce Lee’s favorite drink?
Waataaaahhh!
ah an oldie but a goodie.
(probs just made it worse, didn’t i.)
Wataaaaah!