Posted by Anonymous on 2014/11/24 under Uncategorized hmm well what do i have to say i care and i don’t care but when your mother calls you a ungrateful bastard you think you start to feel something well here the thing i don’t feel anything i haven’t felt anything in years i just put on a show to my friends and family to show im fine they think if i keep taking my meds i be good and not do anything stupid well yes and no the meds don’t do nothing they haven’t done nothing i just put on a show for them and i will do so and just let them keep telling me what to do well here i wanna run my life my own way but people tell me it wont work you cant take care of your self were you going to get the money you can work your lazy and yet there right there always right were here the thing i don’t give a damn what you think or anyone thinks so be it i am me i am who i am if you don’t f***ing like shoot me i don’t give a damn anymore i haven’t gave a damn my hole life my life is a lie i rather die then live a one more day shoot me let me die and as i die ill be laughing my ass of in a pool of my own blood being free of this hell hole of my life and yet ill miss it my friends my family and yet i wont if anyone can understand and tell me whats the matter with me please tell me i love to here your answer so i can add it to all the answers i get from everyone else im just going to keep liveing this life in till i snap my mother has snap 3 times she tryed killing her self and people stoped her well let see if anyone trys stoping me its going to happen one of these days ill walk on the train tracks and stand there jump in to a deep river hell i can swim anyway lol hell take all my meds at once but i cant and i wont i do not know why i just keep liveing intill the day someone puts me out ill be waiting grim reapper ill keep liveing in till that day comes