Posted by Anonymous on 2018/02/20 under Life having to sit in your room alone during an attack too scared to talk to anyone because you know they won’t understand or will think you are over exaggerating is the worst feeling. my head is full of so many thoughts and worries that i can’t even comprehend them all let alone explain it to anyone else to make them understand. i panic and stress to the point of tears not being able to control myself. i don’t know what to do. i’m too scared to tell anyone and i don’t even know how to start. i want this to stop it eats at me every night and i can’t even sleep. then when i get up the next morning i worry about how the lack of sleep effected the way i look and if people are going to judge me for that. my physical appearance disgusts me and the reactions and opinions of others terrifies me. i will never be good enough and i will never be able to fight this feeling. i don’t know where if came from where it started or how to make it go away. i just want someone to understand. please help me.
This may sound odd but I feel exactly the same way. Even now I’m just sitting in my room crying to myself wondering if anybody out there felt the same which is what led me to places like this. I can’t talk to anybody close about this because it would just ruin our relationship and make it awkward..I understand you..I really do..I wish I could tell you what to do..But even I have reached a dead end. I’m not pretty..not smart..I seem to have no redeeming qualities and now I just seem to be confused.. I’m so scared of what others think of me. I feel that if I ever let these emotions out they would view me differently and take pity on me.
“Breathe. It’s okay. You’re going to be okay. Just breathe. Breathe, and remind yourself of all the times in the past you felt this scared. All of the times you felt this anxious and this overwhelmed. All of the times you felt this level of pain. And remind yourself how each time, you made it through. Life has thrown so much at you, and despite how difficult things have been, you’ve survived. Breathe and trust that you can survive this too. Trust that this struggle is part of the process. And trust that as long as you don’t give up and keep pushing forward, no matter how hopeless things seem, you will make it.”
~Daniell Koepke