Posted by Anonymous on 2017/03/16 under Friends You were there for me and me for you. We were more than friends. We were sisters. You cared about me as much as yourself. you always loved me as a sibling and threatened to murder me if i ever have any bad thoughts about myself. haha you were always there for me when i needed you. You were my best friend and i was yours. We talked about everything together and wherever we were, there was always laughter and smiles. I loved everything about you but…. nothing lasts forever. our last year of middle school and you have become a completely different person. I dont know but every time i look at you, the person i once loved as a dear sister is no longer there. The person i talked soo much with about everything. The person i shared so many smiles and laughs with. i couldnt find her. We stayed friends but no more laughter or smiles were shared between us. No more secrets and hugs came from each other. We were and are now complete strangers. youve began leaving me behind in the rain. Youve abandoned me in the snow while trying to fit in with the others that have been talking bad about you behind your back. Not only were you an uprising problem but i also had many family complications to. my cousin ran away and now her family wont accept her back. my 1 year old sister broke her leg and cant walk. My family disagreeing with my future plans. my father passing out and having to go to the hospital. Where were you in my times of need. When i laid crying in my bed because of the horrible things that have begun to engulf me. you were nowhere to be found. Now you even blame me for leaving you behind during our school trip to be with our other friend. You got mad at ME because i left you behind. yea did you know that your comment about me doing that made me cry. not only did you try to make me a bad friend but you also added one more problem to my list. You dont f***ing know how much time we spent looking for you than enjoying ourselves. I was trying to get away from home and my problems for a while but you just made them resurface. You dont have the right to say that you were lonely cause if me and grace “left you behind, you dont even know the slightest thing about being lonely. Me, i was the actual lonely one. You and grace always talked and laughed by yourselves leaving me behind. I dont complain because ive always been taught not to show weakness. Always stay strong and ignore the pain that you have bottled up inside. Even though it hurt being left behind, i endured it anyways. I lived in pain and loneliness with no one to hold me or tell me everything is ok. I endured as uch as i could but that day when you told me that, i broke out crying. Then you played it off like it was all a joke. It wasnt a f***ing joke. Dont act like its a joke and messing around with my feelings because it really hurt when you left me behind and declare that you were the lonely one. I dont even know you anymore.
-to those who read this,
thankyou for listening to my pain and im sorry for the long paragraphs. I just felt so out of place that i couldnt live with it anymore. I dont feel like any of my friends are real and im just soo tired of living like this.