Posted by Anonymous on 2014/09/02 under Uncategorized She told me I am special yet she doesn’t love me, and still I do things for her…maybe I am an idiot.
I know its never going to happen but I can’t seem to stop loving her. I don’t know what to do anymore. I want to stop having these feelings and at the same time I still want them. I feel like I need to stop but on the other hand I think, what if it works out if i don’t stop trying. She told me she is not like me. Maybe it is true. But then why this complication. My heart doesn’t believe.
The real problem is because I am a girl.
If these are your first real feelings for another girl, it is understandable that you are feeling the way you are.
Some will just flat out tell you it isn’t going to happen and they really don’t want you trying to convince them otherwise. Then some will tell you it isn’t going to happen and yet, the attention you continue to give them, they like and take advantage of…even though you know it isn’t going to get you anywhere.
The heart is a mystery about what it wants. You are going to have a difficult time understanding or believing because it isn’t what you want. But, keep in mind…you could be trying to put this energy, these feelings and your heart into someone who does want you and it’s a girl. YOU have to be open to doing it though. There is no reason why you can’t just be her friend. I’ve seen first hand this same situation. She poured and poured out herself…time, money, everything that made this other woman happy but yet, she knew nothing was ever going to happen. She got her heart broken something fierce in the course of time. It may feel like hell for you but love yourself first and make YOU happy.